Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Life on the inside

So I can honestly say that I hate my job. This makes me sad for several reasons:
1. I spend most of my waking hours 5 days a week at this place
2. I want to be doing something that makes me happy
3. I feel I could be doing so much more (more what? not sure just more)

I wake up dreading going to work, I am not longer sleeping. This is no longer only effecting my professional life but my personal life as well. I am tired all the time. I feel like I losing my integrity. I heartily dislike my manager. I don't know if I will ever be happy doing anything. I HURT all the time, physically hurt. I have constant headaches and my neck feels like it is a cramped mess. I know I should be lucky that I have a job but I am finding it very hard to be thankful. I feel like I giant picked me up, chewed me a little and decided it didn't like the taste on me so spat me out. Not quite out of my misery, not normal but not dead.