A pit of loneliness

I must say that it is a very long time since I have written anything, although this is just for me I feel it is important to document my feelings. I have been feeling rather low lately, I can’t figure out why that is. I know that I don’t really like my job and that is definitely contributing to my unhappiness but what else is it? I have lost 50lbs and when I look in the mirror I still look the same, that makes me sad. Today is my 30th birthday and I am not dealing with it very well. Not a ingle one of my friends sent me a happy birthday text message/network or gave me a happy birthday call. They did celebrate with me on Saturday but I would have liked for them to acknowledge it is my bday. I must say though that my party rocked for the most part. I still felt very lonely, but ended up getting laid so that was fun.